(Context: Jesus talking to Pharisees who thought they were hot shots for being really good at knowing Scripture.)
“You diligently study the scriptures because you think that by them you possess eternal life. These are scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life.” – John 5:39 – 40
There is a difference in how scriptures are used for a person who follows Jesus. For if the Bible were an instruction manual for life, it would be as though we continue to read the manual but never actually get to use that which we are learning to use. As if one were to buy a TV… Yes the manual is useful and will show you how to greater use all the functions of the TV, but the manual in itself is not actually the TV. The manual will not bring you any use if you do not have the TV you are learning about. In fact, you could spend your whole life reading the manual and have missed out the whole time on what you could have been doing. The same is with the Scriptures and Jesus. The scriptures are of use insofar as Jesus is your ultimate end. The scriptures are useful to show you what your relationship with Jesus can produce, but if you do not actually invest time in your relationship with Jesus the Bible will simply be a book with some encouraging stories that sure are nice to hear, but don’t actually fill you up with more hope in your relationship with Jesus. See the issue with humans is that we are moody. We are great one day, horrible the next. We could be in a place where no task is too hard, and within a split second feel as though such a thing as starting a conversation is an ultimate burden. This is normal for us Jesus knows this. Jesus was and still is human. Jesus knows that we need constant reminders and even a greater eye opening truth to keep us going with him. It is in the scriptures that we will find more ways in which we can have hope. We can look upon the miracle that is Jesus and be reminded of why we continually choose to follow him daily. But remembering all the same that it is Jesus we are with. It is Jesus we come to. It is Jesus that through the Holy Spirit we can connect with, converse with, be changed by, be encouraged by, be rebuked by, and ultimately be loved by.
Your bible is great to read to increase your relationship with Jesus… but the thing that makes all the difference is actually the relationship. The relationship is what will humble you. The relationship is what will soften your heart. Your relationship with his is what will deeply encourage you. Without the relationship you can read you bible and actually start to believe that that is it. Many a Christian has done it. They look to what most Christians are doing (reading their bible, going to church, being nice) and assume that’s what it is. Then as the anxieties continue, the troubles of life, the hardships, (all things which are promised by Jesus for Christians to face) they fall away from “being a Christian” because in their eyes all it means to do those things. Once they no longer have time for them then they get discouraged and consider themselves a poor Christian… but this is not it. This is not Christianity. Christianity is to follow, be with, and learn to be like Jesus. And if all you have invested in is reading and going to church then in the hard times your relationship with Jesus will be of little or no use, at least the part of the relationship that actually is helpful in such a time. The part where you have learned to hear his comforting words in a way that you need to hear them. The part where the Holy Spirit reminds you and such encouraging ways that the Lord is will you. The part where in your hard times you don’t just let go of your spiritual disciplines because you assume they are doing nothing… Maybe the truth is that they actually are doing nothing… Maybe the truth is that actually have never done anything… Maybe the truth is all your spiritual disciplines have been done for is to “make sure you are still a Christian.” Because what it really is all about is going to Jesus. Going to him with your anxiety. Going to him and letting him know you actually don’t have what it takes to continue on. Going to him and humbly submitting your life to seeking him and the relationship that has once again been made possible through the blood of Jesus Christ. God no longer has the barrier of sin keeping himself from you… now the only thing keeping him from you, is you…
Go to him not as a dedicated, read-my-bible-every-day-so-I-deserve-a-good-life Christian, but as one in need. One in need of help. One in need to encouragement. This is why the Bible stresses humility, it is not because pride in itself is the horrible thing, but pride leads to into a lifestyle the keeps you away from coming to God. The same with all the things God has laid out for us to do and not to do. We do not seek a lifestyle of sexual immorality because that hinders us from being able to come to God honestly. We do not walk down the path of addiction to things of the world because they hinder us from going to God to encourage our broken hearts. We do not hold bitterness against our neighbor because that will hinder us from being able to build more into our relationship with God. God has not set “rules” that we must stay on so we can somehow please him, but he graciously has shown us the things that keep us from being able to grow deeper in a relationship with him in a world that is now totally corrupted.
Jesus isn’t out to get people and make sure they follow his will so he can put another notch on his belt of people he has forced to follow them. He is out to help. He is there to turn to when you’ve reached your end. He is there to hold on to when you’ve realized that it is at your “end” that actually God is then able to really work in you and thus work through you to others.
Yes, read your bible, do your spiritual disciplines they can help just as jogging keeps you fit and brushing your teeth keep you from cavities… But if it really isn’t doing anything for you, be honest with God in that. Go to him and tell him that it isn’t doing anything for you. Go to him and you will begin to see that he is not some high-energy power off in the distance making sure you have done your list of “spiritual chores” so he can then bless you… but you will see what he really is. And once you have finally reached you end, your point of not a drop of energy more, your point of no longer desiring to live under your own faulty rule, your point of complete surrender you… will start to see his glorious beginning. You will see that he is actually alongside you suffering just the same. You will see that he is crying out to keep you going. For his spirit is in you. If your spirit is suffering so is Jesus’ as a Christian. We follow the one and only God who relates for he is just as much human as he is God.